Adios February...hello March

ugh...I never like the month of march...for oh so many reasons! But I decided to add a new post because i felt like my last one was a little negative to look at ...so I welcome March with open arms this year! :) Things are going good here in Utah. Works good, schools good, lifes good. It keeps me busy, but I'd rather be busy than bored. Im still not sure what this summer holds for me. Maybe school...but I would really like to take a few months off after this past year. We'll see. Anyway, although March is a hard month for me generally I thought I would focus this month on a few of my favorite things. I love reading about other peoples favorite things and if anyone is still following my blog (i am awful about updating, I know!), then maybe this will be a fun post for you!


These little goodies that I got as a surprise for Valentines day from my dad! They are about to be thrown out and Im going to miss smelling them each day. I decided that the pink ones smell the best and really remind me of both my grandma's rose gardens!

I have really enjoyed this years olympics! Especially the snowboarding. I like to fall asleep to the tv and so it's been nice having that on in background lately..I'm going to miss it.


Uh...yep!


I liked the old stuff they used to have but this comes in first now...I have searched high and low for a good mascara...tried all kinds of ones people suggested and still have come back to the good old maybelline!


MY ALL TIME FAVORITE ITEM!!!! And scent for that matter. This thing rocks. It is the best car freshener I have found! LOVE IT! $5 at Bath and Body works!

Lately I've been really into crafts...its been a fun hobby to pick up. I don't necessarily craft martha's stuff...but sometimes she has some cute ideas.


I love my house to smell good. I feel it's extremely important! :) No joke! And I am a scentsy fan! I have tried everything and this is the one product that actually works throughout the whole house. I love that I can leave it plugged in and turned on for hours and it's not dangerous. LOVE THAT! And they have so many good smells.....if anyone has one...leave a comment about your favorite scentsy scent.



Well...there you go...that's about all I can think of at the moment. But Happy march to you and I hope it's a good one this year! :)

DONE!

I think something's wrong with my brain! I cannot concentrate today! Basically I'm just DONE! Remember when Monday was supposed to be the day that I was starting over and it was going to be a beginning to a better week....HA! who was I kidding?!

Need your help....

Two good friends of mine are getting married in a few months and have asked me to help them find a few things out for the wedding...I figured the best way was word of mouth! So I need your help....does anyone know any great and reasonably priced photographers, cake people, and caterer and invitation ideas? If so please feel free to leave a comment I would really appreciate it!

Happy new year!!!

Basically that's it...Happy New year and here's to saying adios to 2009 and hello to 2010!!!! I'm ready for you twenty-ten! :)

I couldn't have said it better myself!!!!!

I sometimes read this blog www.haystackoflight.blogspot.com that a friend told me about and today I came across this post...I felt like shouting out loud "THANK YOU~" she said exactly what I wish I could figure out what to say sometimes! So I had to post it!

See, here's the thing. I don't like to talk about dating. Partly because I don't know what to say about it. But mostly because it's difficult. It's like walking a tight rope. If you wobble or bobble and say the wrong thing you fall on one of two sides: a) the side where you're viewed as whiny and desperate and unsatisfied with your life because you don't have "someone" or b) the side where you're overly "fine" with your "situation" and don't appear to even need that "someone". And both, are dangerous.

Having said that, I need to explain some things about my perspective, which is LDS (Mormon). Most people who are not LDS would say that "30 and unmarried" isn't that big of a deal--that there's plenty of time. But the thing is, being "30 and unmarried" in the LDS faith is a bit of an anomaly. Most Mormons marry in their early 20's and begin families soon thereafter. And while that trend is shifting to where people are now marrying at slightly older ages, it still doesn't negate the emphasis our faith puts on the importance of family, regardless of age.

We believe--I believe-- that the family is central to our Heavenly Father's plan of happiness for us, His children. We believe that the greatest joys in life are to be found within the walls of our own homes. I know that to be true. And therein lies the foundation of my greatest wants.

And yet, beyond these matters of faith, there are also just the simple feelings of a girl's heart--a hopeless romantic girl's heart who wishes for someone to hold hands with and dance with late at night after all the dishes are done. Who wants to pack her love's lunch every morning and iron his shirts every afternoon. Who wants to have dinner waiting, along side a big fat kiss. Who wants evening walks and quiet talks right before she tucks her perpetually frozen feet in between his warm ones under the covers. Who wants Cherrios ground into the carpet and permanent marker on the walls. (And if anyone tells me I'm living in a dreamland, leave now please. You're not invited to read this blog anymore. I'm serious.) This girl has kept these feelings locked up tight for a while now, because it's too hard to feel them. It's just easier to avoid them and dive head first into the life I've been given, than to allow them to permeate the hours of daylight. It's easier to say, "it's fine. I'm happy. I love my life. What great things can I accomplish while I have this time?"

But that's the thing...I really am fine. I am happy. I do love my life and want to do all I can to acheive great things. And I am--acheiving great things, that is. I'm on that tightrope, as we speak, feeling all of it at the same time--being "fine" but knowing there's more, loving my life for all that it is but seeing what it still lacks, working hard to accomplish great things while knowing the greatest achievement I could ever attain is that of being a wife and mother.

Oh wow. I just re-read everything I just wrote. It'll be your lucky day if I actually push "Publish Post."

And so. I don't talk about it. Because I don't know what to say. And because it's difficult and I don't know how to walk the tightrope in public.


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as always, please don't leave any stupid comments.
and no, I still don't want to talk about it.

What a year Lily Lou!

Happy birthday to a very special little girl! Little Lily has made our whole family grow closer this past year. She came into this world facing her own little challenges but amazed us all with her strength to endure and overcome them! We all love her so much! Lily you helped us to rely on faith and prayer for your speeding recoveries and health. We love you and are soooo happy that you are a part of our crazy family! I am happy to share my birthday with such a special niece! I couldn't have been happier the day you were born! I remember every text from your daddy that night! You will always be a very special girl to me and I love you!!!! Happy 1st birthday!

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