Life

I know all I talk about is school but seriously it is my life. Pretty much my entire life. I am so thankful to be able to be going to school, but sometimes I just wish I was doing something else. Sometimes I feel like my twenties were spent studying. At least the last 4 year of it. I am exhausted 95% of the time and so drained that I rarely am out having fun. Most people who are around me say that if I'm not working, then I am studying and if I'm not studying than I am working. I NEED to have an outlet. I am so burned out. I stay up til 2 sometimes 4am to study and not because I have procrastinated but because I literally study all day, all night and into the morning. I'm not sure if I am just not that great at school or if my classes are THAT hard. But I'm worn out. I don't want to come off as being whiny, that is not my intention. I AM grateful to be going to school, I enjoy learning, I WANT to go to school so that I can have a good career and provide for myself one day, but sometimes I just question what the heck am I doing this for??? And is it worth it? I really hope it is, but sometimes it is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you're right in the middle of it. Plus I just have to get this off my chest...it is ridiculous that people can graduate with C's and go on to become teachers...but I have to get straight A's to clean teeth! Seriously???? UGh. Maybe I should seriously consider being a teacher. I came across a good quote recently and read over it often.

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. -joseph campbell

I love it. But it takes a lot of courage to actually act on that. Not sure I have it.
Well....here's to my first final tomorrow...hope all the studying was worth it. Time for bed!

Grandma Reeves

Sometimes there are people who you can never forget. Ever. My grandma Reeves is one of those people. I miss her everyday. I see her in my mom, my sister, my brothers and my cousins. She had an impact on people like no one I have ever known. My Grandma Reeves loved unconditionally and had a heart full of charity. A trait I try to work on everyday. My grandmas home was clean, warm and always smelled of a home cooked meal. It was full of laughter and love. I can still remember the feeling of her soft gentle hands as she would lovingly rub my eyes and get me to relax and feel better. She was patient, kind, understanding, not perfect and never claimed to be, but always trying her best. She worked hard everyday of her life. This woman was not lazy :), she was always doing. Grandma would send you home with some sort of trinket left behind by someone else. She would cut a rose from her garden or a slice of chocolate cake, or the last $5 she had in her pocket, you never left her home empty handed. My grandma loved her children, her grandchildren and even her great-grandchildren, pretty much anyone who walked in her home, but the one who she loved most was her husband. I loved to see her love grandpa. I am grateful for her example and for her love for me. I have been very lucky to have had the grandparents that I had. I miss them all, and I learned so much from each of them. Today is my Grandma Reeves' birthday and I miss her. I am so grateful to know that I will see her again. That families are forever and that we will be together again one day. Happy Birthday Grandma. I love you.

Elf

It's that time of year again...
Wanna laugh....click on "Elf" to see me dance :)

Best wake up call

This morning I was woken up by this cute picture....this little one was on her way to Disneyland, Minnie Mouse and all :) So cute! Can't wait to hear all about it!

It's ELKE's birthday!!!

ELKE!!!! I am so thankful that you are my sister! Happy birthday I miss you! I hope today you will eat lots of yummy food, take a nap, shop at all the good stores, and know how wonderful you are! I remember when Alan started dating you! I am so glad I was around to watch some of that and see how not only Alan, but the rest of us fell in love with you. I love how you laugh at everything, it makes everyone feel so funny and good about themselves :) We know we'll always get a good laugh from you. I love your creativity, your hard work ethic, your love for your family and your honesty! I always wondered if the girl Alan married would ever feel like my sister and I can definitely say you feel like my sister and I cannot imagine my life without you in it! I love you Elke and I wish you the happiest of birthdays today! Now....go check your email for your present... :)

Happy Birthday Kendra

Kendra, I love you and am so glad you are a part of our crazy family, I cannot think of a better caboose than you! I remember the day you were born, crazy to think how fast it has gone and I cannot believe how old you are. You are a beautiful girl and I miss you all the time. I remember when I was in high school and had your carseat in the back of my car and would drive you around while I babysat you. I really can't believe how grown up you are. I love you and Happy birthday!!!

Ella the big Kindergartener

Not sure if I'm aloud to post the proof. But hopefully this isn't illegal. LOL. How cute is she! I cannot even believe that she is already taking kindergarten pictures! I know all I do is blog about all my nieces and nephews but I love to brag about these gorgeous kids! I just LOVE them!